I still have a good amount of his family and friends on my friends list. I'm sure they see some of the things I post and they get what I'm saying. I post things about abusive relationships and c-ptsd or I'll make a very vague post that most probably know is about him.

I don't want people to perceive me as "the bitter ex wife". I know how he's twisted history to make me look like the problem and justify his shitty behavior. I know he's badmouthed me to our children and my friends and family but none of them are buying his bullshit. And his family knows somewhat about how shitty he's been over the years but he acts like Responsible Family Man™️ now and goes to therapy so they probably think he's changed. None of them have reached out to me 🙃

It really bothers me that people think he's a good man. He's not. His oldest daughter hasn't spoken to him in almost a year, which is shocking to me, I never thought it would get this bad. But also it makes me feel vindicated that he really is a terrible person, he really was abusive and it makes perfect sense that my son and I can't function now. I think we both have c-ptsd but neither of us are seeing a therapist at the moment.

I want to post every hateful, shitty thing he has said and done. But that's probably not healthy, so I'm posting here instead.

My trauma has been getting on top of me more than I'd like the past week or two. I hate that I get to carry this around with me for the rest of my life. And I really hate that my children have to.