I can’t stop the panic attacks. Literally everything big in my life is one giant question mark right now.

A little background: I’m a pediatric psychiatric nurse who was assaulted while working a year and a half ago. Long story short here I am today and I still use a cane to walk, I have a chronic headache that fluctuates in intensity, migraines, neck/back issues, and when I got the concussion in my assault my eyes got messed up so they don’t work together anymore which results in chronic dizziness. This resulted in me being unable to work. Right now I rely on workers comp, but I have no idea if I’m ever going to get better (my doctors have implied that it’s possible but are careful to say that everyone is different.) I go to OT and PT regularly and they seem to help, but progress is slow. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to work again either, though I’m going to try my hardest because I love being a nurse and working with children.

Now that my husband has hit me with this divorce and cheated on me, every big thing in my future is uncertain and I’m so lost. My career, my health, my home, and whether or not I’ll be alone the rest of my life is one big question mark and the anxiety is slowly beginning to overwhelm me. I was handling it okay when it was just my career and my health but now those other things are being ripped out from under me and I’m falling.

Just needed to get that off my chest.