Just a self reminder cause I caught myself talking as if I’m all good and “it ended several months ago already”… ah yes. It suuuuure did -_- except for those regular dissociation periods which I just struggle to remember most of the time.

I was recently so dissociated I did not perceive the difference between remembering someone touching a bee on YouTube and moving my body. I woke up with my finger actually touching one.

Or then… fuck what was it again? Jdjfhdhdjdjd sOmEtHiNg P.edit: right something about randomly losing track of time, being unable to answer simple questions at work. Dissociating when thinking about an old crush… “I’m cured of dissociation” - ironically said just after a full day of memory loss

Or then today, dissociated randomly after a day of pretty random hypervigilance. I thought it’s too dangerous for me to drive at that point and asked for a switch.

I know this will happen again. And I know that I will forget and genuinely believe that I’m somehow cured of this. When I started writing this I was already half doubting why I ever felt like doing it… I have nothing of worth to say. Just a reminder to myself not to believe my thoughts and never ever say I am fine now even when I am fully confident of it. Hell, maybe just never mention this in general