I want to know how other peoples disorganized attachment works.

So when I’m in a relationship, I’m extremely clingy, loving, affectionate, caring. Very anxious, possessive. I give all my effort and I’m all in on the person, I don’t show any avoidance actually in the relationship. The feelings are very real, and I know I love this person.

But if the person does me wrong and the relationship is near the end, that’s when my avoidance kicks in. Somehow all my feelings just goes away? And I very easily drop people.

It’s because I’m very used to being abandoned. And when it happened in the past it used to be the end of the world, and I would have major break downs.

But eventually I got desensitized to it. Now when people leave I might be sad momentarily, but eventually the emotions just turn off and I no longer care and want nothing to do with them? After like a day or 2. Maybe a week at most I’m okay.

When I broke up with my ex I was with for almost 2 years, I cried for like 2 weeks then I was completely over it. I have BPD btw.