Sappy shit, I know, but it really hit me that I’m also afraid and unwilling to try things and always take the familiar path. If I want to become a better version of myself I need to push myself out of my comfort zone and go for things I’ve never done before.

So to get to the point: how do I do that? My reliance on familiarity is my biggest weakness, I never do things that I’m not familiar with, which entails never talking to anyone because I can’t be abandoned or rejected if I don’t talk to anyone. When I do get to the point of talking to someone I ghost or sometimes or might want to send out a message and I’ll think of it goes further then I have to commit and I don’t delete it. Of course actions as well, such as going home immediately and never staying after classes.

What should my course of action be? I do have a strong will which has obviously been quite the detriment but also could be helpful but I don’t know