Some time ago I posted how I began craving cock for the first time in my life after a cute guy had been flirting with me. I had blocked him and then looked to explore this (whatever this is) online, but then I got cold feet because I have a girlfriend and deleted everything I posted on Reddit.

For more context, I'm a 30 yo out and proud lesbian femme in real life. Wavy chestnut hair, hazel eyes, plump lips, round face. Generous curves. I've been told I make heads turn and that 'I don't come off as gay', but I have a girlfriend and I've never been good at telling when people are showing interest (I also have low self-esteem, honestly).

I tried to stay away from Reddit and all the temptation, but I failed when I unblocked that guy and we started talking again. Things weren't going too well with my girlfriend (I feel a little suffocated by her, and that's why I feel like I can't explore safely or even try toys with her) and I was lonely one night, so he invited himself over. We played videogames and then turned on Netflix, he was so touchy and all hugs and I could use a cuddle. One thing lead to another and he began kissing my neck. I didn't stop him because it was my first time trying anything with a man and I was curious, but then he went from 0 to 100 and whipped it out while we were spooning and put the tip in. I admit I could have stopped him or asked him to stop, but I didn't. I did tell him off after a little while and asked him to leave.

I blocked the guy, however… I cannot stop thinking about it. I've been touching myself like crazy. I've always been so damn scared to have anything other than fingers inside me, but the feeling of his cock pushing its way inside me… I felt a weird kind of pleasure opening me up even through the panic like I was coming alive. So weird, haha. And it wasn't just his penis. His scent, his big, strong body, his hands, so possessive on me… even just thinking about it makes me so wet when before the thought of a guy made me balk! My mind keeps going back to that whenever I have sex with my girlfriend and it never fails to get me off.

So here I am again, trying to explore some more until I muster the courage to fully take my first cock. I'm looking for men who are willing to help me with this and who won't judge me. I'd love to talk about what you would to me. Maybe you teach me to please you, how to get it on with men and become more familiar with cock in general. Or... I don't know, honestly! Even just talking, anything. Bonus points if you feel comfortable leading as idk what I'm doing, lol.

Let me know a bit about yourself if you hit me up.