Is anyone else in that rare area between "Wanting a relationship" and "Wanting a FWB"? I often feel like an anomaly because I use google advanced search for words like fromsite:reddit.com M4M Tested Bisexual p0r|\|" I'm trying to be upfront about everything. I'm not interested in someone who is into that HU culture because I think HU's are disgusting, and up until now I've been relationship oriented, but due to my previous relationship, I can't "perform" when the time comes, and I feel uncomfortable saying "I love you" to anyone because I feel like it has lost all it's meaning, as though anyone who thinks any form of relationship of a romantic variety exists, but those who are enlightened know that romantic relationships are nonsense because everyone is using someone for something, and when the desire to use each other is mutual, it becomes a relationship, so lets look at it with the naked eye and not through rose-colored glasses. Also, I'm apparently a magnet for manipulators, liars, and sociopaths. It is what it is.

I suppose what I'm looking for is something of a very close committed friendship, (call it a relationship if you want). I want someone I feel like I can trust, Like I know they got my back. Someone to spend time with that actually wants to spend time with me. While I do enjoy gaming, I enjoy gaming with a friend a lot more. Lately I've been spending a bit of time each day with a group on Rust, that Ironically are a fun friendly bunch to play with given the game's usual toxic nature. I like the occasional horror movie, and by occasional, I mean I ran out of horror movies to watch on streaming services and now I'm waiting for something else to show up, though I don't really care for slashers. The more ominous and bone-chilling, the better. Never precisely before bed though, and If I finish it late I'll watch an episode of Adventure Time or something before going to bed.

I'm 5'4" 230 lbs, and I honestly don't care about your body type, I'm more about that connection. I've been getting back into working out lately. I'm more of an early bird and definitely not a night owl. I typically don't care about what game is being played as long as it's multiplayer though I'm all but finished with MMORPG's. I should elaborate on what I mentioned earlier in this post that started with a "P". I'm into some very unrealistic situations that are physically impossible, and that's all I'm going to say about that. I also would never consider sleeping with anyone unless we got tested first and exchanged results, and I often find it shocking that so many people are just sleeping around without taking precautions.

Please feel free to message me regardless of how much time has passed, because I guarantee if You're reading this 6 months from now, no one has messaged me yet lol. I'm not desperate, this is more of a sidequest. A goal of mine, if only to see whether or not it's possible to make this a reality.