You ever goon or masturbate or whatever, and it just gets too emotionally painful? Maybe just me, but this stuff is like speed-dating and a personal blog in a sense.

I love touching soft things. I have my cat next to me. Although, I am not a "creature person" in general - human or not.

I love to ramble and babble I suppose, but I'd love to, metaphorically or literally, shit myself and have someone clean up after me even as embarrassing as it is to say. Because think about it. Imagine someone caring about you so much that they're willing to take care of you in the most ah let's use the word 'dehumanizing' for this post - of ways... and still love you. I talked with a woman, surprise surprise I know, but she said she had a huge thing for pathetic men. Pathetic men are sexy. And although I don't want to be seen as pathetic, I do want to be seen as sexy.

And it's frustrating how society sees you as loser for jerking off to anime milfs being morally corrupted and covered in jizz. A tragedy, really. C'est la vie. Je mag niet van jezelf houden. So sometimes I don't love society. Ad mortem inimicus cum no superstes. I messed that up, but whatever. It feels too harsh to say, but I do feel like I fucked it up. And yet, I want to be a loveable fuck up. But asking for that makes my throat tighten. You are supposed to make your needs known though, right?

Have you ever wondered about yourself? I'm sure you have between all the furious flesh-dingling we do with ourselves. It's lovely but monotonous. Whatever. It has been known that mommies and their suitors tend to wonder more than flirt in the bdsm world. Here we are though. I don't want a dom or sub or switch or none of the above man. I want sex and love. A little kissing and pampering after the fawning over of catgirls with busty busts and fat fucking foreskin on their veiny futa cocks. I like the droop with my foreskin. And I like the love with my degeneracy.

What else could I say? Well a lot, but I'd rather say it in your chats hehe. Incoherent or not, I hope it's something I could share with someone, but a lot of us want that on here. Someone who won't judge us for cumming to a hot waifu getting beheaded, uh metaphorically. That's true love after all <3 (or something closer to it, I don't think I have actually felt true love before, but hopefully we all might <3).