For 6 years now I (34M)have had my fwb (29M). Our situation started out very simple but confusing as I am bi and he is “straight”. We meet online and well here’s the story:  He would show up to my job every Sunday, I would give him head in the back office or in the empty apartment my job had upstairs and then he would leave. This went on for about 6 months and within that time I found out he was getting a divorce from his wife which eventually led him coming over my house one night. His divorce was final so he now wanted more. He wanted to talk about fantasies, wanted to experiment, he wanted more than just head. So that night we talked and got to know each other a bit more. Into a year now and our situation has changed. I am now learning to bottom (was always a top prior) I get hooked on him, I now understand what it feels like to be love struck, he took my virginity and now I’m in love. 

The year goes by and I am now in the process of moving to another city an hour and a half away. I think our situation is over, believing that this move makes us done. A few months later I find out he is working In the city I just moved to so our story continues. We find time to see each other, me traveling to him or him to me. 2 years in and something changes. He gets a gf, I’m learning he doesn’t like to be alone. Is this it between us now that the gf is in the picture? No, not even close. I’m still lying in bed with him, we’re still doing everything we did before she came along. They eventually break up and it’s just us again. 

A lot and believe me when I say a lot of questionable moments have happened between us two in these years, enough that should have ended things but somehow here we are still hanging on to one another, why? Fast forward to today, we’ve now been in each other’s life’s for 6 years, our situation still confusing but our friendship is stronger than ever. He now has a new gf, together for almost 2 years now but last night made me question everything once again. He tells me he loves her and how important she is to him but at the same time he tells me he can barely ever get it up for her!!! WTAF!? Tells me I’m also very important to him and talk about our sex, man our sex is fire!!! I feel like I’m in a polyamory relationship except the other half doesn’t know!!! 

I care for him and I always will especially as a friend but man is this situation a roller coaster of a ride. Do I stick this ride out? Do I let him go? Clearly not after 6 years 😂

Thank you to anyone that read this I just needed to vent but advice is great too..