I've rewritten this confessions a few times now, let me try this again. So just before I met my girlfriend, I went on a sexual self discovery. I've always felt ok with being involved with multiple people. I've never had an issue with my exes seeing other people too, whether for lust or something more. They've always felt very uncomfortable with this so after a time, I wouldn't even bring it up to new people. Anyways fast forward to when I met my gf, I'd spent some time with her exclusively and never mentioned my polyamorous feelings. I was about ready to broach the subject with her when we found out she was pregnant with our daughter. This was almost 4 years ago. It took me 2 more years before I even hinted that I was interested in polyamory, and finally last year I came clean. To say she was surprised would be a bit of an understatement. We talked about it hear and there but it always makes her feel uncomfortable. We talked about it today and she just straight out told me that she would probably never get there, I understand her feelings but now I'm a little "let down"? I'm not sure that's the right feeling. I just know that I'm capable of having multiple relationships and it would satisfy me but she just isn't wired that way. So anyways we finally cleared the air but it left me feeling really disheartened.