Years ago I dated a girl who was my guide / partner-in-crime to so many wild experiences. Sex in public, sex in-front of other couples, bondage, dirty talk, toys, anal-play, fantasies - we tried most things we could think of. Unfortunately, the main thing holding us back and ultimately lead to us breaking up was our insecurities and lack of maturity. We were doing shit that we just weren't ready to handle. 20 years later and my dirty confession is that despite having the 'perfect family life' now (i.e. vanilla), I often wish I could go back to those days with the confidence and maturity I have now. I'd know when to go slow, I'd be far batter at communicating wants and needs, I'd be far better at protecting her/our relationship, and most of all; there are about 20 fun and freaky things I'd love to do with her.