As the walk down the yellow road continues, I can’t push my self to stop walking down this road. As a married man I shouldn’t have these desires and wants. I shouldn’t want the need to have a AP or even be in a naughty situation but that thrill and desire seems to push me in that path. The feeling of being wanted is just something different. Lately I’ve been thinking about different things I could be doing. Playing different scenarios on how things would play out. Having an online AP and playing behind the wife’s back or start going to the gym and meeting and making an AP there.. the endless possibilities. As my mind starts to wander the desire to be bad grows. The desire to be wanted and needed grows.. maybe a small bite from the forbidden fruit would taste so sweet.