As a married man I don’t know how to describe it but I have this feeling that needs to be filled. I feel like I’m missing something. I’ve been a good person 97% of my life. Go to church, finish school, get a job and go forward in life. Got married and things seemed ok! Recently though idk it’s like something clicked in my brain and thoughts a married man shouldn’t have started to creep into my mind. Thoughts of having a dirty little secret. Thoughts of having a side chick who is willing to corrupt this married man. Thoughts of having a women fill his mind with lust and desire. Make him be bad and naughty. Make this married man be naughty, have a woman who has fun with him, sends him naughty pictures, makes him focus on her rather than the wife all while everyone around him is clueless. Make him desire her and lust for her. I know it’s so wrong but those thoughts are so powerful that I just want that. I know I’m wrong and a horrible person but idk my brain can’t stop.