I have a brother that is older. My wife does not know that when I was younger - my parents would go visiting their friends in the evening leaving my brother and I home alone for several hours. Being open to learning about sexual pleasures we had the various magazines and such to view and study. We were not modest and enjoy nude play and did take part in sensual touching with each other including erections with eventual orgasms. One of the photos we enjoy seeing was a male being sucked off. My brother's penis responded just to the visual stimulation of this image. I asked my brother if he would let me suck his penis AND he permitted me to give him oral and I learned how it feels to bring him to a hard orgasm and talk his hot cum for some time and eat all he produced. I really loved the feeling of this type of pleasure and would do more in college with only one other friend that I trusted to not betray my secret. BUT - I did expect my brother to return the favor of sucking me and he never did.

I remember I was very sexual growing up and enjoyed nudity when alone with my mother or aunt including being in the shower with them or the bath tub. In college I had one friend that worked in the library and he asked to suck me several times until one day I say to visit my room this evening and we can talk more. I lived alone and had a private room. He showed up and we talked more and more and I was feeling that attraction to do more... getting turned on.. so I asked him to my bedroom and we undressed each other. I was not into romantic kissing or anal but sensual touching that ended with giving each other oral with cum is what I wanted. I was not disappointed as his oral given to me that night I remember is the most sensual I have ever felt. I gave him more pleasure than I expected to receive as I always do with my sexual partners. I enjoy his orgasm and sensual holding my head to control his orgasm in my mouth.

Like I said.. my wife has no clue that I would suck like that and she absolutely does not and never will suck my cock. period

but I do love her dearly.

As a result I find my self feeling the desire to please as I did before I was married.