I have ADHD and medicate with Vyvanse. Amphetamines have always made me extremely horny and amplified my kinks tremendously. While my friends think I'm probably just chatting with someone or scrolling Facebook, I'm actually manically looking for the dirtiest, most perverted stuff I can find on Reddit. And after a while I always start browsing porn sites and save tab after tab with kinkier and kinkier videos to watch when I get home.

As I'm writing this one of my closest friends is sitting like five feet away from me, watching skiing, sometimes exchanging some words with me about the games - he has no idea of the depraved shit my mind is occupied with and the fact that he's sitting there unbeknownst of all this is making me feel pretty dirty and disgusting and therefore turning me on even more. I'm not attracted to him but the forbidden part of doing this next to him and the fact that he unknowingly is part of this kink and my arousal is extremely hot and embarrassing.

This happens way more often than I'd like to admit.