F20s. I work retail. I got this job after being in sex work for a handful of years. This shit is so utterly boring, I’ll let my mind run wild and dissociate the entire shift. I’m literally writing this confession down on the clock, wet asf.

All I can think about is how much I want to fuck my boss. It’s even more fun when he’s there when I’m scheduled. I get so freaked out around him.

He’s probably the most normal average guy ever. 41, white with literally the most average name ever like a John or Nick. Hes not necessarily physically attractive and neither is his personality… hes kinda awkward around his employees but that’s mainly cuz everyone’s like 15-25 years younger than him and mostly are girls.

The most average manager ever. no one has ever had an actual problem with him. He runs the store perfectly fine. He never really gave off any freaky/predatory vibes whatsoever. Like he’s never made any kind of move or weird comment at me or anyone. Just so average. I’d say over all people like him as a boss. I barely ever say a word to him when we are scheduled together though honestly. He’s pretty awkward and will not carry a conversation lol.

What I fixate on is just how similar he is to the guys I fucked for money. Most of those men I’d consider not the greatest people either honestly. I started sex work (escorting & sugar babying) at 18 and didn’t know what I was doing. So most of those guys were taking advantage of the situation and underpaying me. They always pushed me further into kinkier & crazier situations.

I can describe all of them as “hiding in plain sight” type of men. Idk like the type so utterly average and unassuming you couldn’t ever imagine the actual depravity that was in their brain. My daddies & clients came from all walks of life with different professions but they all shared the ability to blend in easily into the crowd. To the point where they could blatantly parade me around to their friends and coworkers. And it was all just so… normal for them? I learned all of those men’s real full names, addresses etc. No shame and complete audacity. Sometimes met family, always met their secretaries. Encountered family friends, old teachers & school faculty.

My boss fits the physical demographic perfectly too lol. Average to heavier weight. Average to shorter height and bald. Also, three of the sugar daddies / clients I had share the same name as him.

The cherry on top is that he’s engaged to a former employee from the store. I don’t really know how that went down, she works somewhere else now. Shes younger than him but not a huge gap. When i discovered this info, it fully reinvigorated this fantasy I had about him. It made me think it could actually be possible.

So I now just dance in the fantasies all in my brain for 8 hours most days a week. Easiest, most fun way to pass the time. I fantasize about him finding my old profiles or this one, or that he recognized me from a recording from my whoring days somewhere out there. Or that I’ve encountered him on a camchat site and had no clue it was him, but he knew that it was me immediately.

I imagine him using this info against me, threatening my job and blackmailing me into sex and complete obedience. That he would schedule me only for closing shifts to get time alone together. We spend that closing hour fucking in the break room. I fantasize about him torturing me with a plug on my shift, forcing me to wear skimpier clothes at work & sneaking feels throughout my shift.

there’s also a part of that wants this to happen, purely to validate in my brain that I was 100% right about him. That all men will be exactly what I expect them to be.