Warning; this might be very gross to some people.

Without going in to too much of personnel history I think I’ve gone too far with online webcam services. Couple of years ago I found a local website where I can call in and webcam with different woman who provide a certain kind of R rated service.

It started out innocent, calling in to webcam site; the performer does her thing I did mine it was awesome! Overtime things got a little more “extreme”.

I found out I’m rather submissive online so went looking that kind of girls, this also started out rather innocent; think of JOI sessions and little anal play.

I soon had couple of favourite girls who knew how to command me. Before I knew it I was wearing lingerie and makeup following their instructions while fucking my self with toys, I became their online sissy slut.

I would wear my girlfriends lingerie and make up. I soon would learn how to eat my own cum in different ways and how to play with my ass. After a while one specific girl asked me if wanted to go further besides the usual instructions and humiliation tasks. And I fully said YES PLEASE. I was was told to do research in to piss play. A session came up and I had to drink loads of water while wearing a way to small lingerie set; and when time came I had to piss on my self and drink the rest. I felt so disgusted and horny at the same time.

Couple of month go by like this; I went online dressed up, toys at hand and ready to be a online slut. I even went as far as buying my own lingerie and makeup. I felt like a proper online sissy who liked his own piss.

I even sometimes went to Omegle (when it was still hot) and found people to whom I could preform to.

Now comes the messy part; during a session I was playing with a dildo up my ass. But it was not clean.. it smelled and my dildo got dirty, I was ordered to blow the dildo while the poop was on it. My mind was going crazy cause somehow I liked it. So know I was a perfect pissy sissy dirty ass to mouth slut.

It goes event further, by now I’ve pooped and pissed my panties, jeans, pooped on plates, eaten it, cummed on it. I had to stuff my dirty ass with a condom who I just filled with cum… stuffed my ass with thongs and toys….goddamn I went too far, but I seemed to like it; and well…

Last time i was ordered to poop in diaper I was told to smear it al over my self and fuck my dirty ass… the lady in question got naked and pissed for me as a reward for being a good messy boy..

Here comes the fun part, I’ve enjoyed so much of it I want experience it in real life with someone but that would mean I’ll be cheating on my GF because I’m sure she not in to it.. and oh yeah she doesn’t know about any of this…. I feel fucked up and slutty at the same time.

In conclusion; - I like it and I don’t - I wish Omegle was still a thing - I wish i could experience the dirty feeling of a woman using me as her toilet - I wish I was normal 😂

End of confession, thanks for reading. Thanks for potential comments and yes I’m open discuss it :)

Cheers!