I grew up deeply religious and in a strict southern christian upbringing. I attended a larger church In a growing community in Georgia at the time. I had some family instability and grew up pretty poor, so I never had much guidance or direction.

I met some older guys in the church and as a part of the community there were various ages/life stages in the same group and we would meet monthly. The older guys would give advise, share life wisdom to younger ones, and it was actually very helpful for me during that era of my life. And that is where I met [Him, 25M].

He was attractive, went to a big SEC college, met his wife there, and they got married the year prior. He was working as a business manager and upwardly moving in his life and career. And we were partnered for a “get to know one another” evening at the church. We spent a few hours getting to know one another and he really took an interest into getting to know me, my life struggles/trauma, which was mainly that I was exposed to hardcore porn when I was 10 by some kids in my neighborhood and that led to 4 of us 10 year olds acting out what we saw in the porn videos to each other, and that initiated me into my sexual addiction that was repressed because of my religious up bringing.

We got to know one another very well and he would text/call me pretty much every week to see how I was doing. He also happened to go to the gym I would workout at and sometimes we would workout together. He became a mixture of an older brother that I never had and a father figure since mine was absent. He would encourage me in a lot of ways and would also compliment me on my growing physique and maturing young adult male body. And I always caught myself enjoying his attention and affirmation.

One day after the workout he said, “hey! Have you ever tried the sauna they have here?” I replied, “no actually, I usually work up a sweat when I lift and never thought I needed to sweat it out any more.”

“Oh man, well you should try it! It’s really good for you and helps cleanse the body! They have some towels you can use and the showers are almost never in use, so you can wash off afterwards.” - “Ok! :) my naïve teenage self agreed.”

We walked into the locker room, “here! You can put your things in my locker, I have a lock so your stuff will be safe.” He first starts taking off his shirt and his clothes, and I notice myself admiring his body, big broad chest, groomed and his hair is even clipped evenly across his body. He turns around and pulls his shorts down and his tight athletic underwear is outlining his ass and is wedgied up into his ass.” He turns and says, “you’ll probably want to take your clothes off and cover yourself with your towel, otherwise your clothes will be drenched.”

So I did, I drape my towel around me so I’m not revealing anything and slip my clothes off and tie the towel around my waist. I look over and he wasn’t nearly as careful when tying his towel around his waist, and I literally saw his cock and balls swinging in between his legs as he covers himself up - he noticed that I noticed his delicious male anatomy.

“You ready? We usually go for about 20minutes. It can get pretty intense in there, so just let me know if you need a break.”

We go into the sauna, it’s dark, hot (obviously) dimly lit through a small crack and window through the entirely wood paneled room. We find our seat and start to soak. It doesn’t take long before we both are dripping in sweat. He says, “you know, you’ve really been showing a lot of progress in your physique, do you know that?” I am flattered and look down, “thanks! Your routines are really helping me.” He replies, “yea? Well, do you want to show you an abb routine I do in the sauna?” I nod yes.

He turns and faces me and lays down onto his back so his feet are directed at me. He describes how to post up and get in position to do the abb crunches and when he lifts his legs up, I am staring straight up his towel and all I can see are his MASSIVE balls hanging down low in between his legs and his half hard-hung schlong just hanging along side his balls and they are dripping in sweat. I literally have never felt a gay urge like this, but I was so unbelievably erect and I felt vulnerable in my towel (he knew what he was doing to me). He repped it out for 20 and then said, “you want to try?” He came over to me by my side and said, “lay down like I showed you.” I did just that, and my obvious erect 6.5 inch 17 year old cock is BURSTING through my towel.

He giggles, “you know, it’s not going to be easy to move around like you need to with THAT in the way.. uhh… is there something you want to say to me?”

I was silent, starting to tremble from nerves, butter flies, and the tingling in my balls like I was about to have them drained by a gorgeous hunk. He said, “you know if these towels are in the way we can just take them off?” I held my breath, and clenched my abbs and hips so if (lol, if, I knew he was about to take my towel off me - so I wanted to make sure I was flexing and showing off for him) he took my - and before I could finish my though he removed both of our towels at the same time and there he was, fully erect with his gorgeous cock and balls ready to devour and dominate my 17 year old body.

He moved his hips to my face and said, “come here… open your mouth.” I obey him and he grabbed the back of my head and I just started sucking and working his cock with my mouth. His smell was intoxicating, manly, workout balls, had a bit of a stench but I was so horny I couldn’t care. “SSSSLLLUURP” I suck the sweat dripping down his shaft and more just keeps coming as it runs down his upper body because of the heat in the sauna.

He pulls his dick out and lifts it up so his balls are more forward and he rests them on my face and they spread out across my face and he says, “yea! You like that?!”

I moaned, “oh-yheauh, rub your manhood all over my face!” His eyes shot open, “fuck, I didn’t know you were such a good little slut?!” I give him sexy eyes and grab his dick and try to put it back in, but he goes, “oh no you don’t, I can’t take this any longer…”

He pushes me back onto the wood bench and my dick is fully erect and he grabs it and starts sucking and jerking me at the same time. I instantly start fighting back my moans and groans and 30 seconds later I tap his head, clinch, and go “fuck! I’m about to—OH! UUHHH!!!” And I blast my cum into his mouth. He comes up, and grabs my face, and signals to open my mouth - so I did. He dripped my cum from his mouth into mine. And whispered, “we need to get out of here before anyone comes in. Don’t swallow that, let’s get to the shower…”

We snuck over to the shower, my mouth still full of cum like he told me to do, and we shut the door, lock it, and he whispered, “spit the cum into my hand!” I did. Now turn around….

Oh God, he is about to fuck my cum into me isn’t he? He takes the cum and saliva and lubricates my ass up, his fingers work their way into my ass hole and I spread my ass for him. He grabs my hips and I feel his tip start to test my ass hole’s readiness. He whispers, “now… this may hurt a little at first, but I promise it’s going to feel really good once I get you worked in, ok?” I nod yes.

“Good…” he says in a deep, alpha, voice. He puts his hand around my mouth and grips it tight as he starts to work his thick cock in, and good thing he did, because I had to let out a groan to help with the pain of the stretch. It took him about 10 slow insertions before my ass finally relaxed enough for him to enter in and that’s when the magic started.

I have never felt so much power, so much lust, so much PLEASURE, so much aggression, so much released repression into my body before. I never knew this was possible and it sent me into ecstasy to know that guys could ever feel this good! It made me want to be a slut for the rest of my life. He worked his speed up and my ass was getting clapped and his balls kept slapping my balls with each thrust and I just started shooting cum with each thrust and my body started melting and I was getting weak… he held me up and pushed me against the wall and pushed all the way in. BALLS deep. And then all of a sudden I felt… warmth, rush, gush, throbbing, quiet moaning, and I now knew what it felt like to have an ass hole full of cum.

He withdrew his perfect cock out of me and the cum just poured out of my ass. And he said the sexiest thing I’ve ever heard, “don’t you ever say a word about this. My wife can never know.”

“Yessir…” I said.

We cleaned off, got dressed and I thought I was supposed to leave, but he said, “wait, I’m not done with you…”

We hop in his big F150 truck, and he says, “I want to show you a spot. If I ever text you to meet me here, this is where we go… ok?” I nod yes. We pull off to this small empty parking lot by a grocery store that no one is at. He said, “get in the back and take your shorts off.” I obeyed him. And he takes his shorts off and we start 69’ing with me on the bottom and I was in heaven. We sucked each other off and made each other cum one more time before he sent me home.

We did this for about 9 months before he ended up moving out of state for work and had to end things with me because he was getting too obsessed with our weekly meet ups he said it was interfering with his marriage. And the sending of nudes all the time was too risky in case his wife ever found out.

I miss him so much and he made me a man and loved me so hard I never knew that was possible for men to feel that way about one another.

Anyway, this is my confession. Thank you for reading.