For about two months, I have been seeing this guy. He saw my post about wanting someone to come up to me at the state fair. Thinking back on it now, he may have been waiting for me at the main gate. I am not entirely sure. But he approached me as soon as I entered. He was nice and for a while things were great. He never said he wanted to be exclusive. We didn't assign any sort of label to what we were doing, and that was fine with me. That was not exactly what I was looking for. I hadn't been with someone in more than four years at that point and was just happy to physical with someone again.

He seemed like such a carefree guy. We hooked up just about every night and I thought things were going well. He wasn't 100% my type, but he was nice and not afraid to be rough with me. But thinking back about it, he was also pretty insecure. For the entirety of our time together, he would make these jokes about me giving hand jobs to strangers. I didn't fully understand them, but just kind of thought they were at my expense. It was not a big deal to me and assumed he was making light of some of my stories from when I was younger. But now I wonder if he was ever really comfortable with me.

On Monday evening, he asked me over to his place and things came to a head. I admit I fucked up and hurt his feelings. In short, he was busy with work all last week. We went from hooking up every night to nothing for several days. I got lonely, horny, and sought out some sexual online role play while he was busy. I didn't think I was doing anything wrong, but I should have talked about it first. That was my mistake. I didn't try to hide it. I used my NSFW account, which he knows about. Every post and comment from last week is still on here and I know that because he showed me every single comment I made on his phone Monday night. And now he says I am a whore. He accused me of hooking up with other people for real while he was working. (I was not.) And he yelled just about ever derogatory name at me that I have ever heard.

After that, he wouldn't talk to me. Monday night and Tuesday morning he just ignored my messages. Until I posted to the relationship advice subreddit. (If you are curious about the post or what happened Monday, you can read it here.) I think I know about when he got home from work yesterday, because he texted me pretty much immediately to chew me out about that post. He was livid, saying that the post was an invasion of his privacy. Keep in mind, I didn't say his name, ever. Also note, he did not have a problem with the first post about me deep throating him or the second post about playing truth or dare. He said that the relationship advice post was an attempt to garner sympathy, but that it backfired and now everyone knows what a slut I really am. Then he got really mean. Keep in mind, this is all over text. He started calling me names. Saying I was intentionally messing with his heart. Told me I was a whore. Told me I wasn't worth his time. And then told me I had to stay with him and that he could fix me. WTF?! LOL.

Yeah, so that's done. It was somewhere between really scary and kind of hilarious watching him tell me I was lower than dirt and then kind of beg me to stay with him. He was still sending me these long, angry texts today. While he was at work even. But at least he isn't ignoring me anymore. LOL. Each of his individual texts today have been longer than any one of our past text conversations. He went on and on about how I would never find anyone better and how no one else would want me other than him. It was like a switch just flipped in him. I told him that he was wrong and to never contact me again. His last message, before I blocked him, was telling me how he would help me.

Yeah.... so, I never found out his Reddit account either. I asked him a few times, but he never shared it with me. Every time I'd bring it up, he’d brush it off or give some vague answer like, “I don’t really use it much” or “I just use it for lurking.” If he didn't like the last post, I am sure he will love this one. Spent today feeling pretty down about myself because of all this, but I am done with that. If he thinks I am slut, then I'm going to show him exactly what that word means. I am going to make up for all my lost time and truly be whoever I want to be. After this I will go and post in several local subreddits looking to meet someone tonight. Hope you enjoy watching my account now.