I got married when I was 23 years old (13 years of marriage for those who can't do math) to a woman I'd been friends with since I was 12. We started dating when we were 17 and have a large family together, which we started well before we got married. About 4 years into our marriage we had hit some significant rocky moments, which lasted for an extended period of time. About a year into this rocky segment, I found out that she was having an affair with a co-worker. My soul was crushed, and I emotionally have never recovered. She saw this man, while lying to me about it the entire time, for about 2 years total, and has never given me an explanation as to why she stopped seeing him. At about this time, I started pretty obsessively looking at cuckold porn and fantasizing about the sex my wife was having behind my back.

Another shift that occurred during the same time period was my wife's gradual loss of interest in a sex-life with me. Early in her affair, she still wanted sex with me nightly. This has progressively lowered through time, and currently I'm lucky if she wants sex once every couple months. My sex drive has always stayed very high. Long story short, years of watching cuckold porn led me to watching more and more sissy porn and imagining myself as the woman in the scenario. This led to me eventually often wearing panties (sometimes my wife's), using dildos and plugs on myself, eating my own cum, and constantly fantasizing about cock. About a year ago, I finally gave into my fantasies and sexual frustration, and I decided I needed to try sucking cock. I posted many personals ads and flaked out every time for at least a month of posting almost daily.

One Friday, my wife and I got fairly drunk, which is usually the only time she gets interested in sex, and we fooled around for over an hour before she asked me to go down on her. This has has been what she's done for years at this point, and she always lets me fuck her once I make her cum. This night, however, once she orgasmed from oral, I started spreading her legs and she said no, not this time, with no other explanation, and just went to sleep. My frustration level was through the roof at this point, so I went back to the living room and kept drinking. Pretty quickly, the combination of drunkenness and horniness led me to post another personals ad.

I figured nothing would come of it, as nothing had any other night. But fairly quickly, someone responded, sounded normal, and shared a picture of his very nice looking cock. This made me so incredibly horny and so incredibly nervous at the same time. The liquid courage overpowered my nervousness, and I sent him the address of where he should park his car, which was about a half block down the road from my house. At this point, I drank another beer, went to the laundry room to put on one of my wife's dirty thongs, put a medium-sized butt plug in my ass, and waited for him to say he'd arrived.

I got the message that he'd arrived, and at that point the butterflies in my stomach felt like they were going to burst out of my stomach and ass and any other orifice they could. I was beyond scared, for many different reasons. I quietly unlocked the door, walked around the side of the garage to ensure our light in the front yard wouldn't turn on, and I walked to his car. I got in, and the only words we said to each other were "Hi". From there my focus shifted to his crotch.

He undid his pants and pulled them down to just above his knees. He was soft at first, but I fairly quickly got hard in my mouth. I didn't totally know what I was doing, but I'd watched enough hours of porn and received head enough to get the general idea. I started to go deeper and faster, and that made him moan more and run his hands through my hair. Eventually, I could feel his cock get even harder, and the head balloon to a much thicker size, and I heard him whisper, "I'm going to cum". He then shot, what seemed like, a huge load into my mouth. I only lost a few tiny drops of it, which ran down his cock onto his balls. I quickly licked his balls clean of the cum I missed, so every drop was swallowed. I told him that I need to go back now, and he said we should do this again sometime soon. I made it back to my house with no one aware I was gone.

I met him about 5-6 more times after that, but he's no longer in my rotation. I have since then met 4 other married men who don't get enough attention from their wives, that live in my area. I see them each about once a week at this point, and generally just meet quick to suck them off. I have finally let a couple of them fuck me too, but we usually just don't have the time for it.

I still love the opportunities I get to fuck my wife, but I've discovered that I love making cocks cum too.