I'm M18 and for as long as I can remember maybe since I was 14 every time I get horny I can't help but imagine putting a man's cock in my mouth. I have no idea why this happens or what caused it. But I love it. I've never thought of myself as gay or bi but this past year the thoughts have been getting more and more. It started out as just taking my sisters thongs and putting them on and the second I would put it on it made me feel super feminine and horny. I would take pictures of myself in the thongs and send them to guys and the praise I got back just made everything 100x hotter. I watch a lot of blow Job porn and every time I watch it I find myself wanting to be the girl with the thong and bra on sucking cock. Just thinking about a man standing Infront of me while I'm down on my knees pleasing him just does something to me. In my head my biggest fantasy is talking to a guy and him seducing me into meeting up and we're either at his house or mine and were together and we take things slow at first like just talking a bit and then things start to ramp up and he starts getting touchy and is complimenting my body and appearance and then he leans in to kiss me and we start making out. And I get in his lap and we make out for a bit and he starts to take my clothes off which reveals my thong which I hope would turn him on even more. And I want my ass being touched and grabbed alot l've always had a thing where I want a man to really love my ass. After we've made out for awhile l'd get on my knees and pull his pants down to where I can touch and kiss his cock through his underwear and then pull his underwear off and see his rock hard cock infront -f my face. Then I kiss the tip of his cock some be v put the whole thing in my mouth and start suckiny. want to start sucking slowly up and down the whole cock and eventually go faster and faster. While I'm sucking I hope he's moaning and calling me a good boy or good girl and just praising me and putting his hand on my head and reaching down and grabbing my ass while I suck, I want to be able to look up at him and stare him in the eyes while I'm going up and down his cock. And I want him to maybe force his dick as far as it can go down my throat and make me gag. Then I want him to fill my mouth with his cum and kiss me on the lips while I still have his cum then look him in the eyes while I swallow. Again I have no idea if I should ever go through with doing this with someone. I've been thinking of maybe getting grinder just to see what kinds guys would be interested in me but idk if I should even do that. It's been a massive fantasy of mine for a long time and it's been on my mind a lot recently.