I (29M) have shown/sent my personal sex tapes to friends, FWBs, and even some girls that I’ve had romantic interest in.

For clarification, I’ve always been very picky and selective with who I decide to show them to. For one, I’ve only shown women. I have never (and probably never will) show them to a dude. It just doesn’t do anything for me for another guy to watch me fuck. If anything, I might give my IRL friends a quick peak if i’m feeling crazy one day. Everyone I have ever shown are people that I know and have met in person, or people that I’ve met online, have verification they are who they say they are, and that I’ve built a strong and trustworthy relationship with. And most importantly, I have ALWAYS asked for consent before sending them.

This all started about 6 years ago. I was in a 2 year long stretch of being single and I was just living my best life. I was fresh out of back to back, fairly vanilla, 3 years relationships so I just wanted to be single and free; essentially I just wanted to be in my hoe phase.

My first time receiving: I was casually swiping through Tinder one day when I got a match. We instantly hit it off and conversations got heated rather quickly. I don’t remember the exact details and how it got to this point, but she asked if I wanted to see her “in action.” I was hesitant. Because of my vanilla past, I had obviously never done anything like this before. On top of that, I was kind of into this girl, so did I really want to see her “in action” with her ex/and old FWB? Well according to the horny side of my brain, yes I did. Next thing I know, i’m jerking off to a clip of this girl (who i’m genuinely interested in) blowing her ex. It was incredibly hot watching someone I was getting to know on a personal level in that way. This was a brand new experience for me and I was loving it.

I found myself in a similar situation with a different girl a few months later, except this time there was no emotional connection, just physical. And the clip was of her riding a dude reverse cowgirl sitting at the edge of a bed. I think this is the one that really did it for me. Her ass was perfection, and watching her take a cock was insanely hot! At this time, I had nothing of similar value to return the favor. But I was determined to make some in the future.

Over those 2 years of being single, I had my fair share of ONSs and FWBs. A few of which I told about my newest “obsession”, and they were quick to oblige and make my dream a reality. They were all very chill, open, and understanding girls. Most of them expressed they didn’t care what happened with them, as long as they didn’t end up leaked on the internet. No problem for me at all, as I am not that type of guy whatsoever.

Sending: I don’t recall which time was technically the first time I had ever sent one, but one time in particular sticks out in my memory and it very well could’ve been the first time I had sent one. I was talking to yet another Tinder girl. I never got to meet this girl in person, but we had mutual friends and had snapchat back and forth a lot and even video called a few times. Anyway, one night the conversation got very hot and heavy and eventually turned into straight up sexting. At some point, threesomes (MFF) were brought up and discussed. She was very into the idea and we went back and forth on that topic for a while. I pressed my horny luck and told her I would want to handcuff her to a chair and make her watch me fuck our friend. She got extremely turned on by that, which got my mind racing. After a little while of walking each other through our imaginary threesome, I told her that I could make her dream of watching me fuck another girl a reality. She seemed very interested and asked how I would do that. I wasted no time and loaded up a tape of me fucking my ex gf from behind. She has a fat, round ass, and tbh my dick looked rather good in this particular tape. So feeling more confident and horny than ever, I clicked send.

I immediately felt a rush of nervousness and excitedness like I’ve never felt before. I just sent a girl that I could see myself getting serious with in the near future, a clip of me fucking my ex gf. I felt crazy, but so turned on at the same time. I was just hoping and praying she didn’t think I was a weirdo… She was very caught off guard and briefly taken aback. Did I just ruin the moment? Did I fuck this whole thing up? Turns out, it was exactly what she wanted to see. I teased her, asking if she wanted me to fuck her the same way so fucked my ex. This drove her mad. She wouldn’t stop raving about how hot I was, and how hot we were together. She complimented my dick, my rhythm, and even her ass. It felt so good to hear these things and it just sparked something in me.

From that point on, I was obsessed. About half of the girls I have shown were Tinder matches, the other half were random girls I met on Twitter and formed trusting relationships with. Most of the Tinder matches were sent in the moment, during sexting or during sex conversations. Most of the Twitter friends I have sent to were more exchanges; I’d send mine and she’d send hers in return and that was our version of sexting. It’s just so thrilling to me, and the validation and feedback I get from them is so rewarding!