I really enjoy giving head, but I never seem to get that back. I often wonder if it’s because I’ve had sex too early with them, or the fact I wasn’t a virgin. I haven’t been for a very long time (30F) and men can get very redpilly around that.

The closest I’ve ever received was getting my ass ate out because my recent ex wanted to have anal and to make it worse about that, that’s the first and last time I received backshots this decade. They usually get awkward about it, and honestly it’s usually missionary. I’m the furthest thing from a prude, maybe I have a twisted relationship with sex and that can be sensed.

Maybe I’m just not alluring enough, maybe I’m too fat, I’ve always been in relationships that have lasted 18 months and way over. So what is it about me that makes them think I’m not deserving?

Maybe its a cultural thing for them, as they have all been from the same cultural background. Maybe I have to look at a different kind of guy, but what kind of guy is that