I’m feeling guilty today.

My partner has this friend, we’ll call them Lisa.

My partner is one of the WORST texters in the world, she’s one of those people that forgets to text people back. But at the same time if someone does that to her she gets up in arms about how they’re not worth the effort to keep in touch with.

I have basically been doing the legwork to keep Lisa and my partner as friends, why?

Because I’m fairly certain that had my life not changed in certain ways, I’d have ended up with Lisa. I love my partner, so much, but Lisa and I have so much more in common to the point that my wife is jealous of how much we talk.

A very small part of me hopes that since they’re both Bi, maybe something fun will happen, some day, but I’m in no way counting or relying on it. Truthfully I know nothing will ever come from it but a man can dream. Also I’m not the kind to sleep around on my partner; because I love her and because we are engaged and we have a kid together. So things with Lisa and I would never trend that way.

But I feel guilty making sure my partner stays friends with Lisa just so Lisa keeps coming over and I get to talk to her.

I know this isn’t as salacious as some confessions but this isn’t a thing you can confess to a friend, and my therapist already has so much on their plate. lol. Thanks for letting me get it off my chest.