24 [M4F] Beta boy looking for a beautiful goddess to worship while you humiliate me

I got my first girlfriend when i was 19. We were in love and she was beautiful. We used to fuck everyday and talk and laugh and spend time together. She started getting distant and we were talking less and less then we started having less sex. I like to think of myself and a pretty average guy and I love sex. I naturally dominate during sex, but I really get off on kissing and touching and pleasing. I love kissing and rubbing and massaging feet and I love a big beautiful fat ass sitting on my face and smothering me and making me eat and lick and suck your yummy juiciness. I love cuddling and caressing your beautiful body and sucking and teasing your nipples and making you moan any and every way I can. With all that being said what woman wouldn't love that right? Well apparently not her. She started making me feel like I wasn't enough of a man to please her and satisfy her and take care of her and make her feel good. We wound up after a couple of months barely talking and hardly ever seeing each other except when I would take her out to eat or buy her something and other than that she was a ghost. Then next time I had sex with her, I usually have to work her up and open her up because she would be so tight, but this time I slid right in! At first i thought she was just horny and ready for me. But not her. I always initiated sex in the first place so I obviously wanted her more than she wanted me, and now all of a sudden I slide right in with no problem? No she wasn't horny, she had been fucking around with someone with a much bigger cock than mine apparently 😅 it really hurt at first, but then I noticed myself started to watch BBC porn and cuckold porn and actually getting off on the idea or watching her phat beautiful ass (she is by every definition a PAWG with small titties, a beautiful face with black hair and big brown eyes, a slim tummy, small waist with a PHAT ass and thick thighs that could smother you and the prettiest little pink pussy) and I started to get turned on by the idea of watching her beautiful think ass getting dominated by a man much bigger than me. So with that being said, I now accept my place as a beta loser and need a beautiful goddess I can worship while you put me in my place and remind me why I'm a pussy-less white boy beta loser :)