I do fitness spots for a wellness/health company. Sometimes they dress me up in some pretty revealing outfits. They kept putting me in these really short shorts, but then one of the female producers got mad/offended about it, so they had to put me in yoga pants for a few spots. Apparently she's LOA now though (about to have a baby), and oh wow have they taken full advantage of her LOA.

In the past 3 spots, I've been dress in really tight little grey shorts that put my camel toe on full blast; really tight pink shorts that squeezed my ass so freakin much; and in this last spot these lil red shorts -- that they've put me in before but only when I was in a kitchen -- while this time it was out in public on a soccer field with men passing by saying things like, "Damn!" "You shooting a porn?" "Clap clap girl!" "Where do I buy one?"

I wish I could find the right words to describe how it feels to be wearing that outfit in public while men are filming me and other strangers are watching. It almost becomes a blur. I almost like whiteout at times. My body gets so overwhelmed by all the attention. I don't know how to describe it right. My body feels like it's on fire at times.

To add to it, one of the producers told me they've been having problems with the comments section on my spots. They keep having to hide so many of them because the company's "brand" is suppose to be "wholesome wellness," but my spots often get a lot of interaction that's consider "inappropriate" for their brand. A lot of women I guess have been complaining about my spots and the comments. I asked him how bad were the comments, and he said I didn't want to know, which of course made me want to know. He eventually showed me a few...

I remember one being something like: "Body is so perfect 💦💦 until you can't see"

And another something like: "Pin her down on that playground while all the dads take a turn"

Holy fuuck

I would have stood there reading them all for the rest of the day but I had to go back onto the field and shoot the rest of the spot -- while having all THOSE comments swirling in my head. Jesus.

They posted the soccer spot yesterday. I saw it was getting a lot of comments -- but I couldn't see them all, which means a lot were hidden. And, like an idiot, after having a few drinks with friends, I texted the producer if there were any hidden comments. I couldn't stop thinking about it all day and then throwing alcohol on top of those thoughts -- not my finest decision making!

I looked back at the texts this morning...

Me: Hey Davey! Notice there's a lot of comments on the soccer post but I can't see them. Are they hidden

Davey: Cheeks. Yes. We had to hide a lot. Surprise surprise

Me: Hope that's ok? Could you maybe send me a few? Just curious to see what some of the guys are saying

Davey: You want to see them?

Me: Just a few yeah. If that's ok!

Level with me: how freakin dumb do I sound?? What a weird question/request to ask one of your boss! God I dunno. Been kind of hating myself this morning for those texts. Maybe they're not that bad. He did send a few of the comments though, so I guess it's not too weird? I just wonder what he thinks of me now.

Apologize for the rant. It's just really wild and surreal. Been working on my body for a long time now and to get all this kind of attention is still really overwhelming. But god I do like it. A lot. Maybe too much.

I hope not too annoying venting it out a little bit. I pin the soccer spot on my page if u wanted to see. Thx guys

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