For several days now, I can’t get it out of my head how badly I want an older man to fuck me. I keep stumbling upon stories of girls around my age say it’s the best sex they’ve ever had and how good it felt. They were treated so well and these men made them cum so so many times.

I want that so bad. I need that so so bad.

This summer I met and flirted with a guy that’s older by more than twice my age. I thought something would happen but then it didn’t… now he’s in another state and I’m left just fantasizing about how it would have felt. It’s like an itch that can’t be scratched and it’s driving me crazy.

Not only is the experience older men have that makes it so appealing but also how “taboo” the age gap feels. I don’t know, I’m trying to sort out my thoughts about it some more. I’m certain it won’t leave my mind anytime soon.