The truth is that I've pretty much always been a bit of a slut. I've just always enjoyed sex immensely,  especially with different guys.  That feeling and thrill of being with someone for the first time is amazing. It's intensified 10x when you're married and being unfaithful.  Even when the sex itself is actually bad,  it's still thrilling and fun.  Although, it's rarely that bad. Sometimes it's just way better than others. You're probably wondering how much I've cheated over the years.  I'm on my second marriage and we've been together for 21 years.  My first marriage only lasted a couple years.  That ended because of... well,  I cheated on him with my current husband and he found out.  It wasn't the first time I cheated on my first husband,  it was just the first time I got caught.  I only got caught because we really liked each other and were fucking way to much and my first husband got really suspicious about how much I was gone.  I met my current husband through a coworker.  I was having problems in my marriage anyway. My first husband was a little abusive.  He liked to be rough with me.  I enjoyed that in bed but not from anger.  He would yell and break things.  When that didn't work he would push me around,  slam me against walls,  choke me,  and slap me sometimes.  My affair with my current husband started when my first husband was out of town for a week or so.  My coworker introduced us and we hit it off.  We went out that night and I stayed the weekend at his house.  We had unprotected sex all weekend. It was amazing,  he was so thoughtful and a very attentive lover. He wasn't very big,  isn't very big,  but makes up for that with oral.  He's the best I've ever had at that. Our affair continued for weeks.  My husband got very suspicious and angry.  He found my text messages and flipped out.  They were very sexual. He flipped out and broke a lot of stuff. That led to a restraining order and eventually divorce.  My affair never stopped with my current husband,  obviously.  Things were good with him. He's never been violent with me, not even the first time he caught me cheating.