Hey Dad, Life has been good but kind of busy. Look at me living the life of a professional adult lady! Lol. I’m looking forward to taking some time off in November and coming home for a visit. I miss you! Or maybe I just miss not having to carry my laundry two blocks?? 😅 well. Me and my laundry will be so happy to see you! Hahaha I’ve been seeing this new guy and he’s pretty great. I told you I’d tell you more if I thought it was serious and I think maybe it is??? He’s super cute. His name is Dave, which i know is like.. a really boring name. Oh well, can’t win them all! But he’s super cute. Oh wait. I said that. Whoops. Guess I have a one track mind! But I mean, it’s important right? He’s also smart and we have so much fun together. He’s met my friends here and they like him! I told you he’s besties with Amber’s bf. He’s part of their clique and we hit it off immediately. I can’t believe we’ve been in the same social circles for YEARS and we’ve never met. Anyway. This is really weird but I can’t ask my friends about it and I don’t really have any guy friends. Cause if I do, Amber is 100% gonna tell her bf and I think Dave would find out and it would be a whole thing. Plus I know you’ve always said I could ask you anything, right? We’re weird like that. 😅

Ok. This is like, super awkward to write out. But I think Dave is like.. used to being with girls with more experience. And sometimes he does stuff and I’m like, is this weird? Is this normal? And its like I should know what I’m doing but I don’t. I don’t want him to think I’m a prude, and I really want him to like me cause I like him a lot. For example, the other day I was giving him a blowjob (I know!! Sorry!) and he grabbed my head and like… jackhammered his penis into my mouth? It was really awkward and I couldn’t breathe and then he like.. tried to shove it in all the way. I was almost crying cause I was gagging so hard. I dunno what to do, I don’t know how to get better at that? He says my blowjobs are ‘kinda boring’ and that hurt. I also really don’t want to swallow but he always seems so disappointed. I read that it’s ok to like.. spit into a towel. And I told him he can cum on me, but he said it’s not as good. And like.. sex kinda hurts? I’ve never had an orgasm with him, but I’m pretty sure that’s my fault. His penis is like.. REALLY big. I think? I don’t know, I haven’t been with that many dudes and I’m pretty sure porn is JUST big dicks. And when my gf’s talk about sex it’s always about how good it is. Dave likes it when I’m on top but I have no idea what to do with myself. It just seems really awkward and sometimes he’ll grab my hips and shove me down if I’m going too slowly. But that hurts a lot! And it’s like, is it supposed to hurt? I don’t know. I just pretend I really like it but honestly it feels kind of terrible. anyway. I know this is super TMI!! And if it’s too weird I’ll go ask some strangers on the internet. But like.. I trust you the most and you ARE a guy so maybe you have ideas? If this is too weird just tell me and we can pretend this never happened.

Hugs and kisses! Don’t forget you have a doctor appointment next week! I put it on my calendar after you forgot last time. Haha