I dated a girl for like 4 years and was absolutely in love with her.... sad part is I still am. I often find myself wondering if it's really her or just the sex I miss. She's a total freak in the classiest sheltered type of way. Presents herself well carries herself with poise and dignity but parties and fucks like a mentally unstable fuckpuppet slut. Went to catholic school K-12. We would get lit and tske molly and x often and just get high and fuck mostly. Anyways.... After 8 years of not seeing each other hung out nearly every day last summer (were both married now). We hooked up here and there and enjoyed eachothers company and got some closure and resolve to unanswered questions I think. She told me that after we broke up she went through a rough patch, which I kinda knew. How she lived in a shitty apt with some girl she hardly new and had started using meth frequently. (We would get twacked on occasion together in the past but always responsibly and recreationally. Like never more than 1 night of partying and usually several months between usage. She was fun af at first but her come down on the shit she could not handle it. She just got super high off the stuff). Well during this dark period for her on meth bad she told me rather casually actually... that she had a fling with a black man. He was her weed dealer and would come kick it I guess and they often alone in the apt together that they ended up hooking up. This continued several times. I would do about anything for a copy of that sex tape or to be a fly on the wall for just one of their interactions.shes a total freak like I said l, especially when high off drugs!! Now she's getting piped out by a younger bbc. If anyone can please tell me in great detail about there similar situation or if a women can vividly write down what must have happened and went through her mind getting fucked hard by a young strong tugged out black cock. Please do!! I wish I could have all of the real details sooo badly. It is such a fantasy to see what their sex must have been like.