Worse, I love women with a lot of sexual experience and confidence, which are of course more intimidating than someone at the lower end of the experience spectrum. At 32, I'm way too old for the whole virgin thing, so sex kinda freaks me out. But at the same time, I have a sex drive the same as anyone else, and I need some sort of interactive outlet or other because just watching videos of people fucking gets kind of boring.

So many women expect men to make the first move, and on here lots of them seem to like to be mistreated as well, and none of that is my thing at all. I've had women on here ask what I would do to them and like...nothing, honestly. First of all because doing something to someone implies, at best, shaky consent, but second of all because frankly I'd be terrified and self-conscious and all the rest of it. I much prefer women making the first move, and preferably the vast majority of the moves overall. I do poorly with choice-making - I get choice paralysis very easily - and that's even worse when, like...I have no grounding here, I don't even know what the options are. Basically, I want a female boyfriend, haha. I love the idea of a woman being taller than me (sadly I'm 6'3"), and giving off that protective vibe most women say they want from men. Sexual confident, assertive, likes the idea of a virgin, etc etc.

And no, I'm not gonna go find a hooker, which is the other suggestion I always get. First of all, I want to be wanted, validation is nice and the comedown afterward would be awful as the whole "I had to resort to paying for it" thing kicks in and ugh. Plus, the single hottest thing to me is women's sexual pleasure and if I'm paying her she's gonna act like she just loves doing whatever I want to do, which is a problem because a) her declarations of pleasure are inherently untrustworthy and b) as above I don't even know what I want to do. Random one night stands are out, as well, because there's just too much pressure with a total stranger, it's not like I'm the kind of selfish asshole who can just bang a chick and leave her to her own devices. Places like OF or the GoneWild subs blow my mind, frankly, that people can just be that open about their sexuality and their enjoyment of it, and it's all hot as fuck. I love women who enjoy sex, aren't ashamed of that, know what they want, and have no issues going and getting it.

Like, the closest thing I've ever had to an actual sexual experience was a friend of mine, who I was super into, bragging very excitedly one evening about her husband's amazing cock. It was huge, and he knew what to do with it, and she was pretty pleased by all of that. She got so turned on thinking about it that she told me she was leaving the conversation to go fuck him. That openness sexually, the excitement in her talking about him, the pleasure he obviously gives her...like, I'm into this chick and she's telling me how great this guy fucks her and I should hate that but it was hot.

Long story short, looking for a sexually confident and assertive women to help bring me out of my sexual shell and deal with the insecurities and such.

No men. No asking for pictures of the friend (or her husband). No sending me a chat request and then immediately blocking me before I can even reply to it. No men.