Worse, I love women with a lot of sexual experience and confidence, which are of course more intimidating than, a woman who's also a virgin. At 32, virginity and lack of experience are generally presumed to be dealt with, so sex kinda freaks me out.

So what I need, basically, is a woman who's very experience, very confident, very comfortable with sex, sexually assertive, knows what she wants and likes, and likes the idea of helping a shy virgin figure himself out. Which is kinda the role men are generally "supposed" to play, which makes life difficult. I don't like women who are all "what would you do to me" - partly I have no idea, partly I'd most likely just freeze up anyway. I don't know if I necessarily want someone dominant, so to speak, because that implies a lot of abusive things that definitely don't appeal...I more want to be, like...looked after, I guess? I love the idea of a woman being taller than me (sadly I'm 6'3"), and giving off that protective vibe most women say they want from men. Which doesn't become an excuse to just beat the shit out of me once we're in bed, or whatever, that just seems weird.

But the hottest thing to me is women's sexual pleasure. In a way it's a bad thing because there's no way I could settle for just picking up a random woman, banging her without care for her enjoyment, and leaving, which makes getting laid a bit more of a big deal. But knowing women are enjoying themselves is super hot. Places like OF or the GoneWild subs blow my mind, frankly, that people can just be that open about their sexuality and their enjoyment of it, and it's all hot as fuck. I love women who enjoy sex, aren't ashamed of that, know what they want, and have no issues going and getting it.

Like, the closest thing I've ever had to an actual sexual experience was a friend of mine, who I was super into, bragging very excitedly one evening about her husband's amazing cock. It was huge, and he knew what to do with it, and she was pretty pleased by all of that. She got so turned on thinking about it that she told me she was leaving the conversation to go fuck him. That openness sexually, the excitement in her talking about him, the pleasure he obviously gives her...it's all super fucking hot.

No men. No asking for pictures of the friend (or her husband). No sending me a chat request and then immediately blocking me before I can even reply to it. No men.