I just really need to talk about this or more like write this out because it's been on my mind recently. I don't have a diary or tumblr and I said fuck it, I wonder if reddit has like a diary page for people just to write things out. So here is what has been going on in my love life right now.

I'm in my early thirties male, and a gamer. I just started talking to this women, and everything seemed to be going great. We seem to have quite a bit in common, but it just started to feel weird after our second date.

Another thing kind of took a weird turn for me because Well one night, my old DCP (Disney College Program 2013 for me) group chat on FB. One of my old roommates is getting married and invited all of us to his wedding.

My ex GF is part of the group because we all did the program together and we were all close to each other. My ex gf I won't lie, destroyed me, and I've had trust issues among other issues since we've broken up in the middle of 2014. Well, during the recent group chat exchanged and messaged me about getting some of the information about the hotel since her invite hasn't arrived yet.

I should add we rekindled a friendship and talked about everything that happened when we dated in around 2017. Every time she's since we wind up talking, and sometimes things will go towards flirting and maybe trying to rekindle something. We always seem to be magnetized to each other if one of us is single and not talking to another person.

Well in her DM she opened up and told me she's going through a divorce, and honestly not really surprised by that. Her and Her Husband were not compatible at all. So once again, we're both single at the same time, and going to be heading to a wedding in October, both single as of now. I could see something happening at the wedding.

Which leads me into another issue, the girl I'm talking to. We been on two dates, and both have gone good! We been texting but lately she doesn't reply as much, or throws her notifications on silent mode so she wont receive the texts with any notifications. She'll do this usually when she's going to go to bed, but now it's at 6 or 7 PM. It's been giving me a weird feeling if I'm being honest.

I work overnights, we usually text when I wake up, and it used to be consistent and a lot, but now its only been 5 to 10 text messages at most with each other. I finally asked about when we are seeing each other again, and we finally discussed it.

What I'm really nervous is I don't want to start something right away when, I'm going to go on a very long vacation in October also besides the wedding I'm going to be gone for the last two weeks of October including the first week of November too. I don't want to be freshly in a relationship, and then be gone for a half of month from her.

I'd never think about cheating, so I'm not worried about that. One of the things I'm worried about is it being so early into a potential relationship and we'll be separated for decent amount of time I don't know how she would handle it. Another thing I'm worried about is if my Ex and I fall for each other again because it just seems like we always seem to find each other when we're both happened to be single.