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So - I’m looking to work with Duke Dantalion for their expertise of the mind in an interpersonal relationship. I’m dealing with a covert narcissist who has thrown me for so many loops that I do not know up from down anymore. But what I also know, is that they are my divine counterpart, which has been shown to me time and again through tarot, my guides with my pendulum, and the INSANE synchronicities that have occurred since we met.

I deeply love this person and I do believe they are redeemable with some self-awareness of their archetype and I would also like them to see precisely what it is they have done to me, as right now they are sitting in fixed delusions and paranoias about me that do not exist in anyone’s reality, their’s or otherwise. I have had some reactionary responses toward them while triggered that I also regret, but I am aware of my own archetype and have been in therapy for a good while for it, so I am working on myself as well. The situation has reached such a height with my person that I really do need the assistance of Dantalion in dealing with this. For myself and for them.

I first invoked them a few nights ago and felt a warmth wash over me, as well as an indigo flash of 2 faces in my third eye. I could feel the presence. I felt like I was speaking with them, but sometimes I question my intuition when my emotions are heightened.

I had written out their sigil and my wish, however, I had made an offering in that for my wish fulfilment during a very emotional time that I feel was a result of that distress, and I would like to renegotiate the offer along with my wish, as well as the wish parameters. When I’ve been thinking about this, I have heard a voice tell me that it’s OK to renegotiate the offer, but again, heightened emotions have made me question whether it’s just me telling myself that or if it is Duke Dantalion telling me it’s ok and we can renegotiate. My intuition in general is very strong, but as anyone who has been on the receiving end of a narcissist can tell you, you will question the very fabric of reality when you’re in that space. Their damage can be insidious on high.

My initial wish was to make them see that they love me still (they waffle on that based on the damage they want to cause that day) and remove all of the blocks in their mind about me. However - especially as I am someone who works in psychiatry as well - I realize it’s not that easy and dismantling the thought processes in this archetype is more complicated. They are also in therapy themselves as well, but sometimes that can enable narcissism further when the therapist is not as equipped for it as they need to be, and that’s been happening here.

What I would really like is for them to be assisted in their journey through their narcissism, as well as seeing me they way that they used to. I caused a narcissistic injury and called them out directly for it when I finally had enough. This was obviously the worst thing to do, but also maybe the best? It spurned both of us to start really digging into ourselves and working out what it is that we need to deal with as individuals.

I also think that I may have invited some negative energies around me without realizing initially. I did not perform the LBRP before the invocation, but I’m going to tomorrow morning before looking to connect with Dantalion again. I’ve been quite down, but I’m also doing a lot of shadow work, so I do wonder if maybe Dantalion has pulled up those shadows with force so that I move through them faster than I have been. I’ve also had contact with my person this week, which went terribly, and that always sets me back for a while.

I guess my question is, what’s the most respectful way to request we renegotiate the offering I made to something that would better suit my state of mind in starting to handle these emotions outside of the desperation I initially felt? I do feel like Dantalion is a reasonable spirit and will understand where I was at compared to where I am at now.

The offering was a small tattoo of their sigil if they were to fulfill my wish, so you can see the desperation already in my initial offer during my first invocation. I would still be ok with considering keeping to this, it just felt like maybe a huge leap because I was up the walls at the time and willing to do just about anything to change the course here.

Any advice is appreciated!