Hello there and thank you all so much!

Background: I don't believe he was a Narc, but a fellow Empath who endured so much pain, he adopted the actions of his abusers and lives in internal misery for it. Very much depressed, anxiety ridden. We dated for 8 months where I took him in, helped him - and be was ungrateful and cheated (not physically but emotionally by talking to women through dating apps) as well as very mean things said and physical things done to me. (I'm almost positive he was twin flame, we had a million coincidences between each other that weren't coincidences.. I'm talking parents having same birthdays and other unexplained things etc)

I put several hexes on him after he left.

A couple of months have gone by. I am healing, rising vibrations, and learning to forgive myself and others.

I asked my cards and Queen Lilith: Am I okay to reach out to my ex ONLY to forgive him and move on with my life?

I kept getting an "intuitive voice" telling me to forgive him, but I didn't know if it was MY VOICE or my "victim " voice wanting me to make contact with a loser...

My tarot cards given are below. Five of Swords (upright) on top of the triangle Page of Cups (upright) left of triangle Nine of Pentacle (Reversed) Center Six of Wands (Reversed) Right of triangle

I get the sense of YES... (from the first two cards) but I have to let go of my expectations his reaction, AND I need to heal more before reaching out. Really reflect on if I have truly forgiven, and make sure that's 100% before falsely reaching out. I get the sense that the cards are letting me know I have to be HEALED and truly let go of him first... And maybe look within for my own actions and forgive myself (Lol like forgiving myself for hexing him)