I wasn't officially diagnosed, but I've had two mental health professionals tell me I'm probably high-functioning... so I'd... like to... sexualize... it...

yeah...

Idk what else to say but my thing needs to be longer, so I'll just ramble. I have this fantasy of being like a fish, like, where your eyes look kinda bovine or dumb, and I find it hot if my understanding of social stuff stays idk... not good. Like... I want to be infantilized I think and patronized, and I want the nice patronizing to be an exaggeration of your genuine feelings and the uh mean stuff or cruel stuff to be like, not how you actually feel. This kink came from a combination of me wanting to be mothered and uh furry hentai lol. I want to be talked to like I'm slow and not fully there, because sometimes I'm not and I get overwhelmed. I love being psychoanalyzed and picked apart like it makes me feel idk. Like I like being came onto and the idea that nothing I do is going to be frowned upon like if I cry or blush or get a boner or flap my hands or whine. With the fish analogy again like I wanna be caught by you and flap around and like "get a pass" because I don't know better as an autistic person. I'm not explaining myself well and I'm not trying to write to be as clear as possible but I also think it's because I like being asked so many questions eeeeee and I like that mystery I can give because then it makes people want to uncover me and I like it. I want to feel seen. Yes please :P

I have girl troubles, and I wanna like, be treated like a loser because I'm socially inferior. And I'm ok with ableist slurs and I love love LOVE creative baby talk and being a "wittle boy wid a wittle peepee." More pet names for that and backhanded compliments or loving patronizing stuff is what I really like A LOT. Another thing is um... I like hearing how my genes and like semen are inferior and how like you're kind of my caretaker or assistant despite my fuss and frustrations from wanting to be treated like an equal. I like the dehumanizing "help." Think, kinda like white liberal racism where white people feel like they know better than non-whites and how they need to save them from themselves, but as a kinda agere-esque autism kink. That's what I'm looking to explore.

As a bonus, I also think it'd be hot to get told to "stop masking." Because maybe I'm not acting as autistic as you'd like and maybe you're into a more manchild thing (or maybe as part of the roleplay you just think I'm lying and acting up) so you manipulate me to "act autistic" in ways I normally am not. Like maybe you'd make me play with uh... rubix cubes while you milk me as a way of subduing me (or just encouraging me to masturbate a lot to subdue myself would be really hot), because like maybe you see any anger from me as like a temper tantrum rather than a thing that adults can communicate over if that makes sense.

Feel free to hmu. I'd like to know your asl, and I hope you'd be interested in talking with me :)