Hello!

Masturbating is a very emotional hobby for me, and I'm ideally looking for a long-term Domme that understands that. (Seeing yourself as a Masturbatrix or Mommy is not required.)

Let me roughly define Masturbatrix from a random website real quick:

"A masturbatrix, or cock controller, is a woman who enjoys instructing a man’s masturbation. She may or may not be into orgasm denial as well. She enjoys the experience of controlling a man’s cock, masturbation, and orgasms.

Observing another person masturbating is an erotic experience for many people, both those involved in the femdom world, and others. A Masturbatrix, as the term is typically used, is usally interested in some element of femdom interests such as:

– chastity training – teasing and denial – orgasm denial – cock control – feminization/sissification

A Masturbatrix does not necessarily have to possess the traits usually associated with those involved in femdom, such as strict, stern, cruel and punishing – many Masturbatrices consider themselves to be sensual, gentle and willing to use all of their feminine wiles to arouse and control their strokepets."

That's the general idea. Let me get more specific on what I'm looking for as your little strokepet.

Now it's debatable if I'm really a sub-leaning switch, but I am an emotional (not physical) masochist and a little boy (among other things). I really don't like jerk off instructions or ruining or chastity, BUT I am maybe willing to do it to a very small extent with a person I trust. I really really don't like physical tasks that make me get up from my bed and stop masturbating. What I am looking for instead is someone to supervise my porn addiction on discord via voice calls and screen sharing and to help me feel emotions. Here's your opportunity to be as cruel or as loving as you want with no remorse. I am desperate and pathetic enough to be happy with any female attention lol.

Verbally abuse me or encourage me as extreme as how you want (no verbal limits, 24/7), but be aware I do have a lot of limits on control because I am very dependent on porn as a coping mechanism. Porn addiction already controls my life, and your role is kind of like a co-top in a sense. I hope you understand. You can tell me what to masturbate to in real-time, or encourage me to edge for a long ridiculous time, or just tease or deny me or be lazily verbal in a session while you glance at my screen once in a while. I want you to join in and guide me when I masturbate, not so much instruct me or directly control me if that makes sense.

To put it another way, in general, you can directly order me on who and what to masturbate to, but you can only guide me on when, where, why, and how to masturbate. I obey orders. I might obey guidance. But again, I can be a little bratty or get carried away at times, so apologies in advance if I'm difficult. I honestly don't mean to be.

Another fun thing we can do is I can ramble about my bizarre and fucked up fantasies, but yeah... it's hard for me to stay on one topic because my mind is usually racing all over the place. It's ok to tell me to stay on track when you want to interrogate my brain. Conversations are difficult sometimes, and sometimes my brain breaks down and gets slow.

My main hobby is masturbating to porn and hentai, and yeah it's really sad, but I see it as a fun opportunity to do something like this before I get better in therapy. It can be more casual or more like a dynamic, but ideally it's long-term and very flexible with you time-wise. I love praise and humiliation, and I also love confessing about my messed up life or being asked literally anything you want. No verbal limits 24/7 except being asked questions or interrogating that threatens my privacy or discretion or when I say "red" or "yellow." Degrade or praise me and order me to talk about something whenever you want, just don't order me to masturbate whenever you want (unless you maybe ask in advance).

It's probably not surprising that with a severe porn addiction comes severe mental issues, insecurities, and trauma. Some stuff might be undiagnosed, but again, no verbal limits! Any question is ok. We can play around with those traumas and issues. I'd love to. I've only done it a couple notable times, one being a dynamic that lasted half a year and another one being with a recurring person I'm not talking to anymore.

Consent and communication is very important. I expect a long talk about consent, communication, negotiations, limits, boundaries, aftercare, risks, discretion, exclusivity, experience, conflict, compromises, and whatever else we need to talk about. Be blunt. I'm socially stunted from years of isolating and looking at porn. Also, I have an avoidant attachment style that I'm working on in therapy. Depression and anxiety too. Sometimes I withdraw subconsciously, but we can try to figure out something.

Some other noteworthy miscellaneous things. You don't have to call yourself a Mommy or Masturbatrix. Everything in this post can be negotiated, and we don't have to stay loyal to the post. Just chatting is ok. I am a night owl in the USA who works a lot. I am bi with a fuck ton of kinks. I love hearing your voice and being vocal. I get embarrassed easily and sometimes get shy (but I will still talk to you). I don't like receiving nudes unless it's agreed upon first. Whatever this ends up being, I guess I'm probably not really looking for a friend or romantic partner from this. Also, I have no limits when looking at porn except anything illegal or stuff that makes me or you uncomfortable in the moment. Let me know if there's anything that you don't want to see on my screen that's another limit for you. I can be extreme and depraved, and especially with hentai, I might randomly look at stuff that you've never even known was a kink and might utterly repulse you. So yeah... please come into this with an open-mind. This is very personal to me. I've been masturbating everyday, multiple times a day to porn for years and years, and a lot of the time, it's the only thing that makes me happy. Do with that what you will.

Instead of a kink list, here's some kinky suggestions and ideas just for fun: maybe daily check ins making sure I watched porn that day. Maybe you'd like to hear me make noises when I orgasm, so I have to send you an audio message each day of me masturbating to porn. Maybe I tell you the nights I'm free, and you can check in on me randomly making sure I'm not neglecting my penis. Maybe you make me watch stuff that makes me feel kinda weird like gay porn or nasty stuff or small penis humiliation or something. Maybe I can let you use my lovense gush to massage my prostate externally? Maybe I can pucker my butt on a pen for you. Maybe you make me confess embarrassing stuff to you while we watch porn together. Maybe you want to start making more demands of me to test how much control you can gain over me. Maybe you make me masturbate and cum to something silly like your knee pit. Maybe I have to stick my tongue out and breathe like a good puppy everytime I cum from you. Maybe I send you good morning/night texts. Maybe I can feed you porn. Maybe I have to tell you what I fantasize about doing with you everyday from the porn I watched that day. Maybe you can tease my limits, saying how you'd love to put me in chastity or something. Maybe we do a little porn inspired rp here and there. Maybe you trigger my mental stuff and make me lose my libido when I'm not masturbating to porn that you approve of. I could go on and on lol.

My limits include anything involving other non-consenting parties, anything illegal especially regarding minors, real life animals, showing myself, sharing our conversations, physical stuff usually, sending nudes, and not using discord.

And yes I know I am asking for something extreme. I have the resources in place to get help if shit hits the fan. I do not have a history of hurting myself physically in any way, shape, or form, so again, be as cruel or as nice as you want. I can always give you some more suggestions lol.

Send a chat, and in your first message let me know your asl, what drew you to my post, and your intentions in responding. Hmu and let's get weird :)