Hey there, long post incoming.

Usually, I don't get along with people, especially women. I am definitely not a womanizer, and I am pretty antisocial. Chronically online. Mentally ill. A loser.

I know I give off incel vibes, but I don't identify as an incel. I did very well in school, and for that reason alone, I had a couple of girls who were into me. I could have lost my virginity, but I wasn't into them so I didn't. I don't want you to think I genuinely hate women or not care about your consent or safety.

The dynamic I am looking for is something where I can be unhinged and creepy as possible. For example, I might tell you I want to rape a woman in an alley and sniff her hair and panties while I jerk off and rub my cock all over her body and lick her tears, and you have to be ok with that. I might say or do stuff that seems like I genuinely hate women or that I actually want to rape you or something awful like that, but when I come down from the high of that headspace I feel really guilty. I hate feeling guilty like that, so I want to only use you as a virtual sex slave. If I start thinking about you as a person, I feel guilt. I want to feel like a creep or even a monster. I don't want to humanize you by talking to you. A part of me wants to get to know you, but my psyche is complicated and I'd probably just get bored and lose interest.

My extreme sadistic headspace is primal. It comes from a place of fragility and deep insecurity. It literally only occurs when I'm actively having a mental breakdown. I want to feel empowered like I am sexually harassing someone, or if it's irl like I am actually raping them (with consent).

I don't like brats because I cannot have normal conversations with women, let alone tame them. I need someone who walks on egg shells to please my fragile ego. I am literally in therapy right now trying to figure out how to talk to humans. I can communicate about consent, negotiations, risks, drop, limits/boundaries, experience, and aftercare, but do not expect me to know how to talk to you like a normal person. That's part of the reason I'm lonely, but also, I am so antisocial I literally just don't care sometimes with all due respect. It's very socially draining and I get bored. I have apathetic modes and empathetic modes which is why I sound like I'm contradicting myself. Remember, I'm working on this stuff in therapy. Lower your expectations.

I see an opportunity from this situation. Sure I could just wait and be somebody's dom after I get my life on track, but I would be wasting a chance for something actually fun and unique for me. I want to be the last person you would pick to be your dom, and I want that to be the reason you pick me. I'll never have the chance to be the incel dom in my fantasies after I fix myself, so I have to do this now.

I am a loser in all of the ways you can imagine. The only things I have going for me are that I am down to earth, a nerd, self aware, and mature for my age. Now here are the things that make me a conventionally unattractive dom (besides what was already mentioned): I passively want to die (never attempting, fuck that) and that's usually where my sadist space truly comes out in its fullest glory, depressed af and have trouble keeping up with basic hygiene, fat, average male height (below 6'), have a micro penis, the voice of a sub, anxiety, fear of women, a feminine face on a masculine body so not "alpha-looking" but also can't pass as a femboy, "addicted" to porn since I was 12 watching it multiple times a day, every day so a stupidly high libido, look at VERY fucked up porn and hentai that makes most people concerned (but absolutely nothing illegal, that's a hard limit), I have extreme sadistic fantasies that I always have to say I would never act on because they are genuinely just twisted and fucked up, my empathy and care about other people's safety shuts off during sadistic mental breakdowns, my Domme thinks I genuinely want to rape someone even though I just want realistic hardcore cnc, and probably a million other red flags. I am a concerning person lol.

You MUST be 18 . We will verify on discord. I would like you to be ideally either cute and innocent as possible and about my age or experienced and mature and a little older. Obedience is important.

Most importantly, I want to randomly text you on discord and have you help me jerk off. I want no verbal limits. I want to be able to ask you any question, and you have to answer honestly no matter how creepy it is (exceptions for information that might violate our discretion). I want to infodump about my torture fantasies, and make you as uncomfortable as possible. I need someone who is very open-minded and non-judgemental too. Ideally you will be genuinely afraid or uncomfortable because of me, but it's ok to play it up if it's convincing. Don't expect it because I am socially stunted and a bad dom, but making you have a mental breakdown or maybe even cry would be really hot. I love a woman's raw emotions. Like, all of them. Even happy ones, but I don't know if I'm ready to make you happy. That seems a little too extreme for me. I'd rather do something I'm more comfortable with like trauma play lol.

Second most importantly, you will send me any porn and hentai that I want. If you're not a total degenerate like me, I can slowly corrupt you and show you how to find the good shit as a bonus maybe. Looking for porn might be time consuming. It will be an everyday thing, and might take hours out of your week. This is for when I'm out of the sadist headspace.

Third, this is very much an optional thing for me as well as the fourth and fifth. I would like you to show off for me. I'm a guy after all, but I only want it on my command. I am open to tpe, but I want to do it on my terms. I don't want to be concerned with whether or not I make you bored. I like petite bods and mom bods, but all bods are good bods. I want to give tasks when I feel like it. I don't want it to be expected to do anything. For this dynamic to work in general, the less expectations you have from me, the hotter it will be.

Fourth, I want to tell you to sext with other people who post. I just find it hot putting you in situations you don't want to be in.

Fifth, I want to set up your hook ups and control everything about your sex life.

These are ordered in how important they are to me, but realistically, all of this is negotiable. I know I am asking for a lot. I want someone devoted ideally to a 24/7 free use dynamic where I can even wake you up just to jerk off.

This is a long-term thing. This is purely about me using you as a virtual sex doll, and it's definitely not for everyone.

I am in EST, and I'm a night owl. Some nights I am very busy and stressed. Other nights I am horny all the time. I expect you to help me jerk off every 24 hours, to call me Master, to be ok with any creepy honorifics like kitten or little girl or my girlfriend, and to be open to free use for whenever I have that deliciously sadistic mental breakdown. Tell me your asl, your intentions in responding, and what drew you to my post. We'll talk about keeping this ethical after that. I might be very slow or very fast in responding. You should have patience. Hmu with a chat if you're interested :)

(Deleted some characters because it wouldn't let me post.)