Hi.

I have a lot of issues, and I am looking for someone to mentally toy with me. Before that though, I need to make sure I can feel safe with you. I want to have a safeword, ideally using the color system because sometimes communication goes over my head. I need someone who can be patient but direct when they communicate with me. If we can't communicate, then it won't work out. I am looking for a long-term dynamic with a Domme. I am bisexual, but I am only interested in talking to women. I have a full-time job where I'm busy all night sometimes, and I am a night owl. I am very clingy and can talk for hours on end if you let me. I would like you to initiate conversations sometimes too because I don't like being the only one who initiates. By the way, I have a big ego, which can make me combative, act weird, or feel traumatized when I'm humiliated and degraded. I want to explore degradation more, and even let you see me cry if you can do it.

I've been watching porn since I was 12. It sounds pathetic, but porn means a lot to me, and with it comes a lot of emotions. I'm looking for someone who can toy around with my "addiction," if that's what you can call it. Basically, enable me like a fat fetishist feeder enables their feedee. Encourage me to watch porn all day instead of finding a girlfriend, or humiliate me for it. Praise me. Make me stop. It's up to you. Either way I'll still want to masturbate multiple times a day. I'm open to you being like a masturbatrix too. We can do joi, ruining, butt stuff, edging, MAYBE chastity, and more. Or doing none of that is fine too. I just really like the thought of my domme being involved in my masturbation habits and knowing that their thinking about my genitals. That's really hot to me.

When it comes to toying with my mind, I have no limits. We can blend reality with kink. You can use my real life trauma against me at anytime, and say whatever you want to me, whenever you want. I may be busy sometimes, but that's the only thing that will stop you from saying whatever you want. I have major issues with mental health too. That being said, you can encourage me to permanently harm myself, but trust that I never will. I have never even attempted to permanently harm myself, and I never will. I have the systems in place to get help if shit hits the fan because I am seeing a therapist, so please please please do not hold back your desires. I want to give you the opportunity to be as cruel as you want to another human being without any remorse. I really do mean no limits too, well, except blackmail and personal identifying information. Also, I would love to be forced to confess embarrassing things and to be probed with embarrassing questions. I will not lie to you. I may try to avoid you though because of my avoidant attachment style, but again, nothing that some communication can't fix. Please remember, whatever we do, I really do want this to be fulfilling for you too. I can be a greedy topping-from-the-bottom pillow prince of a sub at times if you leave me to my own devices, but I really do have a subservient side. If you don't make your wants clear and I do, then you're probably going to feel like a kink dispenser because I have a high libido and constantly switch between desires and make those desires known. You might have to reign me in, and I'm ok with that if you are too.

Some other kinks/fantasies I'm interested in trying (but we don't have to do any of them at all, especially sending nudes) include worshipping your nudes or voice, mdlb (I am a lot of things, but I fall into little space more frequently), DARK ageplay, patronizing praise, voice calls, rp (sometimes), forced confessions, sph, cei, being fed porn, being told what porn to look at, forced bi, feminization, using my lovense gush, and exploring every other dynamic role known to man. I prefer mental play way more than physical play, and I have many fantasies ranging from wholesome to gross to depraved to bizarre.

My limits include anything illegal like minors and animals, findom, blackmail, nudes of me, no safeword, tpe, long-term chastity, plus, I'm usually reluctant to do anything that keeps me from being on my bed all night watching porn and talking to my domme :P

I am willing to negotiate all of this. We don't have to stay loyal to the post, but I think it's a good framework for what I'm interested in.

I only talk on discord, and I would like to verify in some way. Hmu with a chat or message if you wanna talk some more :)