I knew it’d be a quick trip to DCHS. In and out same day. Got to the campground at 10:30, got to the springs by 11:15. Only stayed until 1pm since I really had to get home before dark. But still, that’s nearly two hours to soak. Should be nice. Right?

No. Not a good trip, I feel awful.

About 12 people there, split between ~4 groups. Every single one clothed. Not one person spoke to me as they walked past me at the pool I was in. The few I spoke to were short with me. One guy asked “hey do you mind if I play some music?” and someone responded “as long as it’s quiet, and maybe relaxing.” He proceeded to pump loud EDM music.

Passed a few people on the hike out, also clothed. One group made way for me on the pathway but turned around so they wouldn’t see me naked.

I feel alone. I feel like I shouldn’t go back anymore. I feel judged. I feel ugly. I feel sad that a place I used to love doesn’t seem to be for me anymore. I just like getting naked with strangers and new friends. I thought I could do that here. I’m so sad tonight.