Hey everyone Hows everyone doin? Hope everyone is doing good and alright, just wanna vent!

I am surrounded by friends and people who loves me, yet i still feel very empty most of the times as soon as i am not with anyone just myself, everytime i get to be alone, i start to be with people everything goes, i do not know if its the weed, or if its the porn, but damn i feel empty. I am a grateful person, i am mostly happy, so i do not think I have depression, i am the guy who cracks jokes and people would listen, but when im at home in my room in feel really sad and down sometimes without a real reason. The thought of suicide kinda comes and goes (im not seeking attention by saying this) all im saying is if this kinda thoughts are normal.

Goodnight yall, merry Christmas good people

Would love some outside perspective!