Okay quick rundown: I am a 24 year old male with a bachelors in accounting and I’m currently residing in a college town in my home state, New Jersey. I’m unemployed because I never applied myself to anything very professional or qualified. In fact, I generally hate the subject but I majored in accounting ultimately because I didn’t know what I wanted to do with my life and it was broad enough to land me a good job no matter what.

I’m a musician in a shitty local band going nowhere, but I love writing/playing music. I also got a minor in philosophy out of pure love for the subject, and I love diving into history and science as well. I’m not claiming to be the next Aristotle or something I just tend to associate better with people who are fairly intellectual and are capable of talking about it. I’m not very athletic but I go to the gym to lift weights, but I ran track in high school and I much prefer cardio although I don’t do it much anymore. I try to be spiritual, there was a time where I was meditating every day consistently, but it’s since slowed down a lot since I found myself in this deep rut.

Other than that, I don’t have much else going for me. I just got out of rehab last year and I feel I have become more emotionally mature as part of the process. From an amazing start to 2018 to it ending with a terribly messy breakup, 2019 was not nice to me. Needless to say a lot of shit happened but some good happened like getting a dog and becoming closer to my family.

I pretty much lost touch with all of my old friends likely because everyone is trying to figure themselves out at this age and I was barely available throughout 2019. No one came to my birthday party this year. My landlord is kind of giving us an attitude right now about paying the security deposit for this coming lease because I basically have to move into a bigger more expensive room. However all my housemates are moving to different places, including one who I consider a close friend but is now considering moving to Alabama with his friend there for a cheap place. I haven’t had sex or even been on a date for 9 months, haven’t been in a serious relationship for even longer. Right now I am so alone. I don’t have anyone supporting me or helping me with my decisions. My life is lame and undeniably sucks right now and I think I have a lot of potential if I actually work for it.

I went into 2020 with good intentions and I just have this gut feeling that positive changes are going to happen. I don’t want this for me anymore. I can have so much better. I’m heavily considering a completely fresh start, in a new state in a completely different culture. I want to build my life, I want to find people who appreciate me and respect me. Somewhere with more opportunities and more things to do. Somewhere with a heavily involved music scene. I know I definitely want to work for entertainment, whether it be producing or administrative work or being an agent or something. I want to be in the entertainment industry basically doing behind the scenes stuff. I can’t find anything like that over here.

So please, if any of you kind experienced gentlemen have any advice for me, suggest where I should go or what I could do, or even just helping me grow the balls to do something like this. I feel like taking a risk is the only thing I have left.

Edit:: I also recognize COVID complicates things for the time being but it’ll just spare me time to figure myself out.