I don’t really know where to start with this post. I’m 31 years old and I know I work hard at all of my goals, but I’m a victim of previous abuse and as I’ve gotten older, I realize I’ve hung around abusive relationships for so long that I’ve wasted a ton of my life.

I want out. My current relationship is with someone who’s cold, unfeeling, and commits verbal, emotional and pretty much any type of abuse under the sun without remorse. I got kicked out of her car earlier today because I told her I didn’t want to be yelled at, and I just don’t care anymore.

She’s out at the same park having a good day with the dog. I’m waiting for my therapy appointment. I just don’t care about her anymore and I’m tired of pretending I should.

I don’t ever want to hear the names she calls me ever again. I don’t want to be blocked in my own home ever again. I don’t want to be hit in the face for trying to leave. I don’t want to hurt and expect the person who hurt me to make it better anymore