I need to take a break from this game. I have 1200 hours which is more than I’ve ever put into any one game and I still fucking suck. I have watched countless hours of looping guides, map guides, explanations of perks. I’ve recorded my own matches and watched them back to try to learn. I’m still ass, and it’s incredibly demoralizing and frustrating to have invested this much time with nothing to show for it. I feel like I’m in MMR hell, team mates are generally unhelpful and killers are tunneling and curb stomping and camping and BM-ing (to be clear I don’t ever teabag or emote or taunt or BM). I don’t even really care about escaping I just want to have a decent game now and then where I feel like I managed to contribute and make good plays. Just feeling disheartened and needed to complain for a moment