Here we go, back to square one and kind of double whammied.

Was in a dead bedroom situation for months but recently found an AP. And things were good with her. We were great match sexually, we had the same kinks, she was super sexy and our play sessions were electric, real fireworks. Things were clear, she was in a long distance relationship, I was married... Everything was great.

I left for vacation with my wife and kids. During vacation, we had "the talk" with wifey. I knew it was coming, we basically are roommates for some time now. She is not in love any more... Not her fault, not mine... Anyway.

Coming back from vacation, looking forward to seeing AP. Unfortunately her partner is back in the picture and she wants to try and make things work with him.

So here I am, back to square one. Worse actually, we're in this kind of awkward situation with my wife where no one knows, about to start the separation process. We are going to have a party for our anniversary next week, and I am even planning her a surprise for her 40th birthday.

Meanwhile, we're back to old habits of not touching each other.

The irony of life...