Looks like it's been about a year since I've posted in here. A few things have happened, more hasn't.

Some good stuff first I guess. I've lost 30 pounds which is about half of my goal. I'm planning on resuming my dedicated effort after a break from strict diet and exercise. My testosterone therapy seems to be helping a great deal in that respect.

Other "benefits" of T-therapy are just compounding my frustration. My libido is the highest it's ever been with no real improvement in the bedroom. She's made some efforts, even started her own hormone therapy but things still seem "same ole, same ole" zombie bedroom.

She still treats sex like some sort of obligation she could do without, she'll deny it but thats how she acts. I wouldnt even mind if she'd just pay the smallest bit of attention to me. She only wants me around so we can share some TV show, correction shows.

My increased libido has lead to me taking care of myself whenever I can, AT LEAST once daily. This has caused other issues, like when, out of the blue, she is actually willing I've already pretty much litterally blown my wad. I have no expectation of when I might get any so I don't make any efforts to be prepared, I might make slightly  more effort on weekends to abstain since that's when chances are higher but not guaranteed.

It just sucks hoping something might happen, totally in vain. Any attention or even, God forbid, flirting completely ignored or dismissed even ridiculed.

I could ramble in for ages but i just needed to vent. Good luck to all the rest of you.