I'm the only one hurting in my marriage. I'm the only one I see that is demanding too much.

My wife is a beautiful human being but it's like living with a Catholic girl before marriage.

I'm currently on the verge of crying almost at all times now.

I feel like a bad man when I even think about my own sexual needs that were already denied multiple times. So many times that I have high libido but I can't see my wife as a sexual partner anymore.

If I were LL we would be both happy and my marriage would be perfect... But everyday I feel I'm losing something. I'm starting to feel that my old age already arrived.

I even thought of taking my own life, but the thought of my wife suffering because i couldn't keep it on my pants stops me.

I feel small and alone.

I know this is my second post, but I feel terrible... Terrible for wanting these things.

My sex life is gone, I either kill my libido or kill myself.