I think I'm starting to see it clear now. It's beginning to make sense to me now...at least in my mind. I'm not sure you've ever had a high libido. Your...active participation in sexual activity was never about your pleasure....at least from what I can deduce. It was all about his pleasure, myself included. I'm truly sorry for that.

Touch was your love language. Correct me if I'm wrong....please....but most men wanted to touch you sexually for their pleasure. Kissing can be both sexual....and non sexual.

I will always want to make love to you. I think where I deviated, and threw you off, and killed your sense of affection....was that I didn't need your tongue in my mouth or our hands constantly all over each other.

When we met I hadn't been in very many sexually active relationships. Girls didn't want me. So when one did choose to spend time with me, my focus was on them. Why do you think I offer you massages, or when I touch your skin is try to caress you rather than pull my dick out.

Yes....i want everyday to make love to you....i don't want to have sex though. I've said this many times.

I think me telling you so long ago that I felt smothered set off a chain reaction. You telling me that sex with me is awkward has had my mind churning.

I'm willing to bet that the affection you were used to was primarily sexual in some fashion. When I snuggle up to you, I have always gone for your belly. It's the cradle of life. I cherish your belly, as I cherish you.

I don't know where any of this is going but my mind is racing and I'm depressed.

Tonight, after you commented about me rubbing your side and saying it was your belly, I stopped. Dropped my hand to the couch and waited. You didn't reach for my hand at all.

I've actually done this many times. You won't grab my hand until after I put it on your leg.

I don't feel desired. I don't feel wanted.

I am done asking if we can make love. It should be natural. It should happen naturally. If I have to ask then it's pressured...if you're not aroused...then it's a chore. Intercourse should never be awkward, and it shouldn't need a bit to get going.