I was looking at some recently taken video/pics of myself. Yeah, I'm looking pretty heavy. I'm about 50# heavier than I was when I was at my best physically about 15 years ago, about 65 more than the lightest I've been since we met.

But TBH part of it is because I eat due to a regular cycle or rejection through our entire relationship. I'm going to get more fit for myself, without worrying about what she thinks or does about it. I'm not going to even point out any progress. If she notices, she notices. If not, her loss.

Edit: I have recently found out I've had some biological deficiencies that have prevented me from benefiting from exercise in the past 10 years which made me give up. Hopefully, measures to correct these will be successful and I'll be back in top shape in no time.