Hello everyone first time posting but I am so frustrated I need an outlet. So bf I have been together 4 years but right before we got together I went through sexual assault. It was very hard and I was very hesitant to date my current Bf because I was still working on feeling better but he said he understood. In the beginning we had intercourse maybe once a month or once every two months. But he would try on a regular basis. I did bring up my reservations about where I was sexually and where he was and he said he was okay with it. Well fast forward to 4 years later. I am getting rejected left and right now. It’s been 2 months since our last encounter and I feel very frustrated. In the past he has mentioned me having fun on the side as he felt that my sexual window just never matched with his but I wish we could work out sexually.